Views on a Personal Journal

 I think I should start writing a journal. I don't know if I'll be able to cope up with it but I really should. I've started to feel that I'm doing some things wrong. So here's why writing the journal could be a good idea.

• I don't ever talk to myself. Whenever I feel some kind of emotion I just run to some person and tell them my problems. That doesn't make me confront the situation but just escape it. It just helps me to divert my mind instead of finding a permanent solution. Only I can find a solution to the things that I've been through because no one knows the proper details and the emotions behind everything in my life. So no one can make things as better as I myself can.

• I used to write when I was in school. Sometimes revisiting the pages feels amazing. There were sometimes I felt vulnerable and I poured my heart out on the pages. Now looking back at it makes me realize that everything goes on, life goes on. There are phases in our life, some good, some bad. Nothing can hurt forever. I was strong enough to go through all the emotions then. I can do it now as well.

• Everybody has insecurities. Mostly I tell all about it to a person, but then I instantly regret it. If the person in front of me is not in a place where I am, it is difficult for her to understand. And when I get reactions like, "don't think about it too much" or " you can't do anything about it now" it increases the feeling of insecurity even more. Putting out things on paper might help me reflect on the situation better. It can help me be a more secure person as I can look at things from a different perspective the other day. Papers handle the mood swings better I guess.

• If I can't think properly about something that I want to do, or can't figure out the proper way to do it. writing makes the task easy. My mind works differently with pen and paper I guess. Even if I can't make decisions regarding anything major, just 2 or 3 days of writing would help me develop a clear version. How I really want things to be. Why do I want it? Or why should I not be interested in it? The answers to all these questions could be found with a clear perspective.

• Writing helps me to introspect better. Analysis of the situations becomes easier. Instead of being hard on myself, I can learn from my mistakes, and that in turn will help me be a better person. The first step of correcting mistakes is acknowledging that I did a mistake and many people fail to do so. So first, to burst my own bubble of being the right person always in the room and handle things better.

• I won't call or text random people just because I feel blank. Writing makes us explore things we don't even remember we were so interested in doing at some point in time. It makes us more creative and productive. And it feels better to do anything else rather than looking at the rectangle boxes for hours.

The only con I could think of is if someone reads the journal, I'll be in trouble. Yeah so, feels kinda necessary to start a personal journal during the quarantine.